So picture it.
The other day, I was driving down the road with my mind flooded with random thoughts of different people in my life, different decisions I had to make, different BILLS I HAD TO PAY and I began to feel a little overwhelmed.
So overwhelmed that I began to feel pathetically sad.
I literally grabbed the steering wheel and yelled as loudly as I could, at the top of my lungs. A nice little release of energy. (I didn’t yell anything in particular – I just screamed.)
Living in Midland this last month has been absolutely incredible. I LOVE my new friends, my new jobs, the children I get to teach each day, and of course the music I get to practice and sing. I am loving my new home. Honestly.
I haven’t been lonely (I’m much too busy to be lonely), I haven’t cried (much), and I have laughed, danced, and sang more often than not. It’s been a fun month.
BUT being an adult is OVERWHELMING. It’s tough, mostly for the fact that being financially knowledgeable (and responsible, hi mom and dad!!) is an important thing.
I was walking around a store the other day (Hobby Lobby, if you MUST KNOW) and saw a sign that said, “Don’t become an adult! It’s a trap!” and I had to laugh because man, sometimes it seriously feels that way!
I remember being a little 8 year old, thinking often about what it would be like to be a “grown-up” with a husband and a couple of babies, a few cats, and a bunch of bills. I’d get nervous because how was I, Susena, the little girl who almost accidentally killed her cat once by trying to make a collar out of a too-tight-ribbon, supposed to take care of herself – let alone an entire FAMILY?
I still sometimes think that. And thinking like that leads to worry. And worry leads to fear.
So flashback to the other day while I was in my car allowing my brain to become a jumbled mess, the Lord sternly reminded me of something I told a friend who was dealing with similar worries.
“You have no right to worry about these things. If you trust Me, I will take care of you. Don’t you trust me?”
1 Peter 5:7 says, “[Cast] all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.” Everyone knows this verse. It’s like a Hallmark card verse.
But what about the rest of it? What about the context?
Casting our cares upon Him is an act of humility – an act of telling Him, “Okay, God. I get it. You have the control and I don’t.”
The verse before tells us to “humble [ourselves] under the mighty hand of God…” and the verse after commands us to “be sober [and] vigilant; because [our] adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.”
Reading on, you’ll see that casting those worries upon Jesus is an act of resistance to the devil. Cloudy thinking and panic attacks are those things that are used by this roaring lion to keep us from the full blessing of a worry-free life in Jesus. Worry-free doesn’t mean trial-free or difficulty-free. It means that no matter what comes, HE is the focus and I don’t have the right to worry about something He so sternly commanded I give Him.
You, my dear friend, are not to worry about what you will eat, what you will wear, how you will pay for your bills or gas for your car. You don’t have the right to worry about when that more-stable-job will come along or when the one will pop their little way into your life. You don’t have the right to worry about how you’ll stay healthy during flu season when you have a million things to focus on or how you’re going to pay your cat’s vet bills when they try to eat a plastic bag.
You don’t have the right to worry. You are commanded to have peace.
You are the righteousness of God through Christ Jesus, my friend. And with righteousness comes PEACE. And with peace comes JOY. And with joy comes REST.
You have all of these gifts through the suffering of this world. Through the difficulty that comes with living. Through the pounding of those lemons that life throws at your door.
“But may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you.” 1 Peter 5:10