Hey reader friends! On this chilly Monday, I thought I’d write a little life update and give you some encouragement if you’re going through some big moves on your own!
Yesterday I packed up my car with (nearly) everything I own and drove 2.5 hours away from my Hillsdale Home to my new Midland Home. I’m not moved into my apartment yet but I’m pretty permanently here and it definitely wasn’t the easiest thing to do.
My parents and I had a tearful group hug outside in the rain right before I climbed into my car, never to be the same again. Now, instead of being a resident at my parents’ home, I’m a guest. It was weird, sad, and strange.
I got to my destination and immediately decided to go to the evening service at the church I’ll be going to. I climbed out of my car, covered in crumbs from the crackers I was eating for dinner, and I felt my tired, puffy eyes grow heavy with every step I took towards the church. But I felt that strange sensation build up inside of me.
Every person I saw in the church gave me the best hug, the brightest smile, and the kindest word and through the powerful worship service and evening message given, I truly felt more and more strengthened, awake, and alive with every minute – every word.
Now, you know what it’s like to be a Christian. The moment you feel some amount of clarity in a decision you’ve made, suddenly, every thought of doubt and fear comes rushing at you to try and prevent you from actually doing what you believe God wants you to do.
On my drive to meet my friend for an actual dinner that wouldn’t consist of crackers and cashews after service, I just kept thinking, “Am I doing this? Is this okay? Am I making the right decision? Can I afford this?” It’s like the message I’d literally just heard 30 minutes before about how nothing is too hard for my God and how He’ll always come through just kind of vanished out of my head.
As I sat down to eat, I told my friend, “This is hard. This is one of the scariest things I’ve ever done.”
Without skipping a beat he said, “What’s there to be afraid of? I mean, if I was going to go do something I thought God wanted me to do, don’t you think He’d provide?”
I didn’t have an answer. If I truly believed that God was on my side, I had nothing – NOTHING – to be afraid of.
Isn’t it funny how we can feel entirely refreshed, renewed, and strengthened during a church service, and immediately begin fearing the future ahead as soon as we leave the parking lot?
So this morning I tried something. As I sat down to do some training for my new teaching job, I decided instead to start my morning off just worshiping Jesus. I turned on “Way Maker” sung by the Pentecostals of Alexandria (seriously, if you want a worship jam session on your own, TURN THIS UP), and sat in my bed praising Jesus. It wasn’t long before I was on my feet, with my arms raised, truly worshiping, truly believing in His willingness to provide, and truly declaring that I wasn’t afraid. That I wouldn’t live in fear of days to come.
Now, let’s again be honest here. I will have to worship, and read my Bible, and declare my belief in His promises more than just today to truly get it inside of me. I’ll probably have thoughts later on today about whether or not I can afford something, or whether or not I can deal with homesickness. But in those moments, I’ll look to Jesus and say, “You’ve got this. You will provide.”
His provision doesn’t just mean finances. It means strength. Joy. Peace. Comfort.
He will provide.
For God has not given me a spirit of fear, of doubt, of unbelief, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
He will provide.
Genesis 18:14 says out of the mouth of God Himself, “Is anything too hard for The Lord?”
The answer is no, dear reader. Nothing is too hard for The Lord.
If you’re going through some changes, some big moves, and you’re experiencing fear or doubt, ask yourself that question. Is anything too hard for The Lord? No. It’s not.
On my way to Midland, I said to Him, “God, I don’t care what it looks like, even if the path you create for me doesn’t make any sense to me, as long as it makes sense to you, that’s cool with me. You will provide.”
He will provide.